/Monday, January 17, 2011 / Monday, January 17, 2011

I chose a topic which interest me, but it spells difficulty.

I sometimes do doubt my ability. I just aint that confident in things anymore.

I gain weight. Went fatter, rounder. But, i'm simpler and happier.

I wana make people around me felt that way too.

At times, i do worry. Worry bout my studies, financial, Kaylee, most importantly, my parents' health. I worry that they might just go off and i havent done my part to make them live well.

Times like this, Lord answer EVERY of my worry.

When I went for the internship interview, I prayed for a successful interview and acceptance in the company. That things will be good, if not better.

These few weeks, the fact about my dad's check up regarding the lump keeps bothering me.

Especially when doc said its a tumour.

Negative thoughts flow through. I was so down and moody. Nobody really understand how it feels. Cause, everyone will just say, it'll be ok. 'but ok? you sure? i cant trust you.' was all that flashed in my mind.

And during those weeks, Pastor's sermon was all about placing my faith in Lord.Not once, but twice, when i attended church. It really was my mental support. that jab me with a dose of faith each time.

I told myself to have great faith. Cause Lord doesnt fail me, even once. He uphold his promises.

I want to be a living testimony of what Lord's grace can do.

I'll grow stronger.

And you too.