Finsh What You've Started.
30.10.10 /Wednesday, November 3, 2010
/ Wednesday, November 03, 2010
dear Darren,
news of u getting killed is jus so abrupt. eventhough we've stop talking to each other during the recent years, it still affect me much to hear about ur death.
i remembered during our secondary days in Loyang, having the god-sis and bro thingy, we often meet aft school to smoke, prolly for a yr. You always ask me about what opinion i have about ur relationship. As what was mentioned last night, you loved ur friends more than u love urself.
we were once strayed, cheong, me, xiang hui and etc; we once were stupid enough to dream of being part of society. thinking that its cool.
but last night, last night, ur family members were strong, esp ur dad. he said something which i reckon much;"Darren wasnt a bad kid. He tried to be. but he cant. He just wanted to be a part of somewhere, to be accepted." that was what left the deepest impact in me.
We can dislike someone jus bcuz he/she is irritating, a boot-licker. but nv have i thought that all he wants is to accepted.
How tough it is for those dearest to see you lying coldly in there, to sing praises and condolences to ur family. Why is it that everyone is growing up, and jus when u too, are given the chance to. such incident happen.
They say, kids who learn music wont stray. i say, kids who belive in Christ wont too. I find peace that you're now in a green pasture. That u wont have to worry about ur grades, ur hair, ur pimples. That right now,all u have is embracing in Lord's grace.
If, if i didnt jus give up. prolly we could have attended church together.
Darren, pls, give blessing to ur family. that they will take these baby steps to adapt life without u.
Im e eldest, and i could imagine how sucks it is to have the family burdened on the shoulders of ur sister.
Give them strength, cause life for them will never be the same anymore.
Chirstians do not paticipate in Halloween, and i wont even more celebrate this day, cuz one of my friend left for Heaven on this day.
Your friend,
Wendi