Finish What I've Started.

the commentator by the name of CHERI...L /Thursday, July 23, 2009 / Thursday, July 23, 2009

been keeping this to myself and not wanting to blog about it.but just let me rant.because i think it this person doesnt deserve me to hide her identity.actually.this post is regarding a person by the name of 'C'.

some of you might have get to know this incident.
some time after i got married, 'C' called.

C:"eh, you married alrdy ah?"
Me:"who told you?"
C:"no,you just shut up and answer my question.why you got married ah?,what happen?"
Me:"you tell me who told you first."
C:"aiya,news spread fast.you dont need to know.you just need to answer my question"
Me:"i dun see the need of telling you the reason if you're hiding things from me"
C:"ok den.nvm."
Me:"Bye."

i know sometime later you will get to read this post.and obviously,you know that im talking about YOU. yes,im putting this superficial 'friendship' on the line because i dun think i deserve such a
good f friend

let me tell you something,
1)you're not my mother,not my father or brother.you nabeipuacheebye dun come and talk to me like you own me.
2)dun talk using your ass.who are you to come and ask me to shut up and answer your fucking no-brainer question.
3)dun talk as if you're soooooo concern about me as a friend and sending me those superficial msges aft e conversation.
4)FUCK YOU(i will bring out my 'book of vulgarities' if i have to.) when you say u promised and respect the person who told you what had happened to me not to mention her name.
5)and because you are soo determine to keep this FUCKINGNOSEYPARKER identity, so am i determine to find out ITS identity.and thank God,and your friends.i know who u are,true friend indeed.

till now, this moment.i dun see the need of telling the whole world why im married.as i mentioned,only the closest know me best.because i dun think that those people whom i have not informed are indispensable in my life.
thats the reason why i've change my blog into a private mode in first place.inviting people whom i think are genuine being a friend.
YES.SHOTGUN MARRIAGE. but hey,before you start to comment on whatever shit i've got myself into,or how silly i am in getting married at such a tender age. think again,if you face the same situation,
WOULD YOU DO THE SAME AS ME-to face the whole situation and being able to face yourself at the end of the day,not thinking that you've killed a life.
OR,to kill that little life in you. being able to face the world,but haunted by the fact that you once was a mama.

if you choose the latter,then you are as good as a beast.