its been so long since i last blogged.chowchow got himself enlisted,finally!!!!
how time flies,kaylee is now flipping and happily talking and talking.
well,will update soon.
off to blogshopping.
(:

ya,my blog's rather dead.
but i guess i'll be blogging much aft 11.dec.
hate it.
call me sissy,useless or wadever.
but im jus so not use to having chowchow nt sleeping by my side.
and tt i cant see him as and when.
i thought it'll be easy but,not for recently.
tt i know im not the usual me.
sorry ppl,but i really need my close ones,the normal few for this period of time.
i wish i could say soo much.but well,i duno who i am now.

i know i've been disappearing from blogger quite some time.
worked like a mother fuckin cow and i enjoyed it.
some random thoughts.
although somewhere,somehow in life,things have changed.
nothing stayed the same it used to be.in terms of friends,those who are true stood stil and never run away.
im glad tt given my character i'm still blessed to have those few true and good friends sticking by my side.making this tough journey a little better for comfort(:

damn it.
chowchow booked next yr tickets to bkk .
and fucking hell.
four days aft booking.
HIS FREAKING ENLISTMENT LETTER CAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ccb mansxsxsxsxsxsxsxsxsxsxsxsxsx.
not only tt he cant celebrate my birthday with me.
he's enlistment date is on the knncc* birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


anyway,he said tt if im able to find someone to acc me to bkk for tt trip,he'll considered it as he's sponsoring the ticket fare for me and tt person.
jus tt e other person got to top up ard 100 to change the name?
BUTTTTTTTTT
everyone is nt available.
how nice.
jus keeping my fingers crossed tt sherms or eve might be able to make it.**
ok.and since tt's the case. again,we're going to book next week tickets to bkk.
in celebration of CHOW WEILIANG 20th BDAY. and his last holiday b4 havig to surrender his hair for army.
ohwellohwellohwell.

is there a formula to marriage?
i hate myself.
yes i do.
dun ask me y.
i dun belong here.
i've got so much things to say.
if only there is another wendi as listener.

i think im falling.
back to the past pls.




for my baby girl.

when u realize it's not only ur life u're responsible with.
when she's the love of ur life.
the reason you tolerate with the changes around.
the reason when u face into the mirror, seeing the body changes after pregnancy. and laughed it off gracefully.
the reason when she fall asleep in your arms.
and you tell urself.
"Its all worth it, for my baby girl"


and suddenly you feel tt, "hey,im no longer the past me."
she brings out the motherly me(:



she's sleeping.ard 2 weeks old.


RECENT PICTURRESSSSSS.
more to come.
(:

well,its been sometime since i last blog.
dedicate this space to my little girl-
happy one month little girl.its been a month since you're out from my tummy.
i admit,initially life ain't easy to adapt when you're with us.
having to wake up almost EVERY 2hrs,hoping to give you the best i can-breast milk.
yes,tiring it is,but whenever i see you smiling,i know its all worth it.
you make me realize the satisfaction of being a mother.
rmb when i bring you back.u're 2.8kg? exactly a weight loss of half a kg since you're born.
and now i bet you're at least approaching a 4 kg.
its all because of your existence, i realize how powerful i can be.
just for you.
i hope you'll be able to read this space many yrs down the road.
for all the things i do, i just hope tt you'll be a strong happy and healthy normal girl.
tt you wont be like ur mummy, born with many sicknesses.
i will continue to give you my very best i can.
all because i bring you into this world.
and now, exactly 12 am,i wish you a happy one month old.
baby girl. i love you.


and brother, like always,i will still be ur big sister, ur pillar of strength.
its just tt we're nt staying under the same roof.
but i am always here for you.
just like the past(:

in a few mins time, lulu and co will be on board the air plane for a 5 days shopping spree.**envy envy.
i want to go too!!!but i know i'll miss my girl like hell.so... well,wait till she slightly older.
i hope the girls will enjoy their trip man!i guess its damn exciting la. sherms said they'll be clubbing. i'll be waiting to hear their stories.hah.

very fast.
confinement days will soon be over. . which means my little girl's full month will be reaching near!!
chowchow and i have decided to settle with distributing cakes and stuff to our relatives instead of holding any form of gathering.
it wouldnt be nice to let our relatives to bao another red packet for little not long after our wedding,isnt it?(:
i've got real lota pictures of my little girl.
real lot.
from day 1 till now.
she's grown alot.from the scrawny little kaylee to a kaylee much more chubbier.
i hope she will be as fit as a bull.
and that she can have the happiest childhood she could ever ask for.
because deep down, chowchow and i are really trying to give our very very best to her.
(:

fuck.
ya, i've given birth to a daughter whereby it seems like im nt her mother.
its who and who, who make the decisions.


detest.

sometimes,
sometimes i just wish that i have the ability to escape with my girl and hubby to neverland.
or maybe a place where its only, me, him and her.
funny isn't it?
i've given birth to a girl whereby its who and who call the shots.
she's nt going to go bald.
_|_

duno what got into me.
suddenly got the urge to break the news about my little girl and marriage to cheong and GH.
tested for their reaction.
Gh1802 <3 Kit1802 says:
eh
baby?
WENDI says:
ya
mine
Gh1802 <3 Kit1802 says:
ur baby?
WENDI says:
ya
Gh1802 <3 Kit1802 says:
OMFG
when did u....????
WENDI says:
i intend to tell u all aft i give birth.
im married.
21/03
born few days back uh!

You stopped sharing photos

Gh1802 <3 Kit1802 says:
holy shit


Don -` says:
its a baaaaaaaaaaaaaby
so cute
WENDI says:
cute rite.
mine
Don -` says:
wads its name
WENDI says:
DUN GET SHOCKED!
Don -` says:
err herrr
wad
WENDI says:
ya
mine
serious.

You stopped sharing photos

Don -` says:
errr..
wth
WENDI says:
yups.
HELLO?
Don -` says:
beautiful
lol

to my pleasant surprise, they gave their blessings. something which i want to keep forever.(do you know how it feels when someone,who've accompany you during that secondary school yrs give you their utmost blessings?AWESOME(:)

Gh1802 <3 Kit1802 says:
SURE
why not
=]
anyway congrats for the wedding and all the best for ur baby
make sure u be a good mama and take her up well
WENDI says:
of cuz la.
been deciding for v long.
b4 coming to a conclusion
dun wana kill
Gh1802 <3 Kit1802 says:
yepyep
btw u look damn pretty and u have a very handsome husband
=]
all the best for ur marriage
Gh1802 <3 Kit1802 says:
well maintianing a relationship is not easy
so i know u can do it
=]
mama ler
AIYO
happy for u

Don -` says:
awww
slowly ba
u'll be a gd mum for sure
Don -` says:
lol
shocked a little
but everyones growing up liao
so.. just another phase of life
and am soo so so glad u made la..
awesome
Don -` says:
yup yup
tough times dont last, tough man does
but for ur case, it can also refer to u
lol


thanks dudes,for believing in me.giving me the courage and confidence to live life with my head held up.and at the v. least,i know,having a friend like you,is worth the years(:

DISCOVERING THE SECRET WITHIN.
guess its time i tell everyone how i get to know about my pregnancy.
those who are close to me will know that i have been a strong believer of living off my single life,as in the thought of marriage is never anywhere in my mind,especially when im starting to get a hang of my school life.
during that time,i remembered saying that i'm living the best part of my life.never would i want to change anything.
because i had the bestest boyfriend,closest friends,night life could never be more colorful,everything in life i could ever asked for.
i had regular mens,so when my mens was late for 1,2 days,i knew something was wrong.
shared the news with lulu.
i tell you, THANK GOD lulu was there giving chowchow and i the support. we wanted to get myself tested. everyone was anxious, luckily this girl give a clearer picture of ehat we should do.
tested 3 times. maybe im in a self denial state,i keep thinking those results werent accurate enough.so we went to see a doctor to confirm everything.
that was the worst stage.the 5 mins waiting time jst seems forever.
and that damn fuck doctor,just persuaded me to just abort the baby.

remember ah,
THAT ANG MO KIO CENTRAL BLACK MOLE RAFFLES MEDICAL CENTRE DOCTOR_|_

the whole incident happened before Chinese New Year, both of us wanted to let our parents have a Happy new year before breaking this earth-breaking news. at the same time, chow's family was busy planning his dad 44th bday celebration.

went to research about abortion, drank the whole bottle of cough syrup each day to make myself sleep(chow didnt know about this.hah),and decided to keep the baby.just couldnt bring ourselves to kill this little life.
luckily,luckily chow has been v. supportive on my decision.not making me feel anymore stressed.


PRESENTING TO YOU.............................
our dear girl KAYLEE CHOW(:

hihihihihi!
finally,after !@#$%$^ years,i get to go out 'see flower see grass'.
went to TMC for check up.
i realize my courage got boosted after giving birth to little girl.
friends and folks,
I GOT MYSELF JABBED TWICE TODAY !
damn proud la.haha.
little girl has been getting cranky these few days.i hope things will get better in days to come.
been totally breast feeding her for the past few days,getting up every 2 hrs.
but i think its all worth it.seeing her grow each day.and the contentment on chow's face.
i know, its all worth it.


ohoh.btw,Monsters visited me yst.THANK YOU guys for the gift,especially the card.
Touched***
(:

ok.let me start blogging by congratulating baby girl a HAPPY 1 WEEK OLD!
life had took a 180 degree change ever since her presence.
gota wake up every 2 hours to b-feed her for half hour,everyone in the house is getting busy about her.
wanted to pen down my thoughts.but i think little girl's awake.
gootta go play with her(:
anyway, the pictures u guys requested.
ENJOY!
First Day.
her very first photo,see her wet hair?hah.



Day 2.



A happy daddy(:

Day 3.



upload the rest when i am slightly free.
bye!

seriously duno whats happening to blogger.
now.cant upload a single picture.
argh.
anyway.a thought came to my mind last night.
im really really glad tt i didnt abort little girl.

really really really glad.

ENGOREMENT.
ENGOREMENT.
ENGOREMENT.
ENGORGEMENT.
ENGORGEMENT.






i hope little girl will faster get discharge.and help me with this damn problem.i dun wana end up having blocked ducts and fever.i wan to BREAST FEED her la.

hihihihihihihihihihihihihi!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
little girl's having jaundice.
staying in hospital.
hopefully tmr she'll be discharged!!!!

should i say im happy tt chowchow went out,or should i say im happy tt im having some time to myself?



is this normal?
will someone just talk crap to me.i feel like talking crap now.
i think i've eaten some estacy.
!@#$$#%^%



**target found:talking to shi jun now.